Wow, it s been again months since I wrote anything on this site. Last time I probably wrote when I just got back from Hong Kong, back to Perth and I m still here. I ve been here since November, 2011 and today is 17 March, 2012 and I am still part of YWAM, that is Youth with a Mission, organisation that is all about missions. I have been with them since July 2011, that makes it 9 months by now and sometimes I ask myself: How long more I will be with them? I don t know the answer yet, but I think I might stay with them for a while. Why? That s what I m trying to explain and maybe also figure out to myself and to you, who you are on the other side of the screen that what are the reasons I should stay on with them or why I should not..
It s my 10 th week out of 12 week lecture phase and it s been practical. We have learnt how to perform, how to be on the stage, how to write songs and how to play in the group, but I think the challenge for me was, how to write songs in a group of people that are from all over the world, mostly from States, but also from Indonesia, Australia, Africa and I am the only one in this group who represents Europe, more specifically I would say Estonia cannot represent all Europe, but anyways..
The school is not just about music. It s about missions. It s School of Music in Mission. of University of Nations. Let s put it that way: We learn how to reach people through music, with music.
Most of the songs what we hear on the radiostations contain a lot of immorality, violence, hopeless and stuff that promotes it in people s lives.
Our vision is different. To write songs, that connect people, but also bring them hope in their lives.
But it s not that easy, that just gather in a group and only write songs and go.
Few days ago I had this one on one with my school leader and he asked about my financies. I told him what I had to say. No changes in financies. He asked me if I know why. He pointed that it s because I probably haven t done enough, like haven t contacted people and stuff.
I told him that I don t even know if I wanna be part of that stuff anymore and that s probably one of these reasons also why I haven t contacted people, haven t done updates and stuff. He comes back to question:
"Do you see the benefits from the school you take with you if you leave the school?"
"There are some", I think to myself, but don t say anything.
He encourages me to stay on and think through all these things and conversation ends as he had to go somewhere. I have tried to avoid these conversations, because I don t have much to say about financies.
I know I haven t done much also, I mean, I can t go to work, because it s not just school, it s more like organisation that sends students also out with their songs, but without financies, it s not really possible. So I m part of school, having some workduties after classes for the organisation, do some homework and that s how my days go.
How do I get my school fees payed?
They ask me often what have I done for it. They encourage me to pray for it. To pray for my financies? It sounds a bit unreal, and I don t know exactly how it works, but last time when we went to Cambodia and Hong Kong, it happened, somebody donated to my name 3060 dollars. That was just like what? I was motivated to stay on, but now haven t seen anything coming in and I feel like haven t done much to get my financies in. I actually know some people, who might have some "spare" money, but I don t really feel very confident to ask money for my school fees. It s just not what I want to do. How should I explain? What should I write?
"I m part of that school and would you like to support me to get over all these fees and stuff..", it s just a bit
embarracing. My school leader would respond to that with question:
"Does it have to be comfortable always?"
And I think why not. I mean what would people think back in my country about me? They would say:
"He s in Australia. It s one of those countries in the world where normal labourer would get payed more than
any specific worker in other countries, why should we support him?"
In Australia we can easily get 20 dollars per hour, without knowing much.
How can I ask any support from my country?
In Europe there is lack of opportunities to work. Even if you are lucky and you find job, the salary per
hour would still be somewhere between 5-10 Euros and in eastern Europe somewhere between 3-6 maybe. I don t surprise if somewhere they get even less, like only 2 Euros or only 1.
2 euros per hour, when In Australia you can get 20 euros? My brother worked in Sydney on construction site for 23 dollars per hour and on Saturdays he got double, 46 dollars per hour, which in Euro would be
somewhere around 30 at least, 35 maybe. I m not in course how is the course between AUD and EUR,but
30 euros per hour is deffinitely fine in any place in the world, whether you live in Sydney, in London or in Tokyo, this should be enough to not worry about financies unless you are greedy person, never is enough for you.
So yes, I can t really bother people back in my country, they would rather ask help from me and I would like to help them if I had enough or some spare, but yes, not really vice versa.
But whatever happens, will happen. I keep telling this to my leaders, they don t seem to like this very much, they would even say that I have wrong attitude. They try to encourage me to not have any backup plans and to be honest I don t even have any. If I can t get financies in 2 weeks, well, in 2 weeks we want to be flying already to London, but if I can t get these financies done, then I have to do something else.
I have always had that little desire to do something for society, for environment around me, sometimes more, sometimes less, but it s been there. To change something in the world, give some good input or bring some good news. It s been there and it would probably remain there.
I remember when I lived in Hungary, worked there for some charity purposes in a voluntary sector, I found piano in the house that we worked at, it was a bit out of tune, but it was still piano. I wrote one song I remember, I almost fell in love with one british girl, nut I didn t tell it her, because I knew she was leaving like in few days, but I wanted to express myself somehow and I wrote that song. Actually there was more like a story. I lost her USB stick, I was responsible to make a video for them, video from the trip they did in Budapest, but I lost her USB stick, it was like 18 GB and I think lot s of footages was on that stick. I was partying there one night, and then it happened I went home without that USB stick. So embarracing, finally they basically kicked me out of their program. I felt so bad, I felt that I really made a mistake and then I wanted to express myself somehow and result of that I wrote that miserable song.
I know it s pathetic but as I already mentioned that then I would also give a link to it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OFq8I08scH0
Anyways, back to the topic. London. Am I going this time?
Only God knows.I trust God, totally. If He wants me to go, then I m obviously going. Who can stop God? I don t think anyone can, we can turn back to Him, but we can t stop Him.
Oh, one of our goup members made a little video about us. That s the link to it.
http://vimeo.com/38273312
And one more thing,
If anyone feels that wants to support our trip to London, then you can go to the following address.
http://www.ywamperth.org.au/007/payonline.asp
Just choose for student payments and to the final step you can also type just Somm or School of Music In Missions.
End of that blog this time again.
17. March 2012.
Perth, Australia
Viljo
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